Welcome to Alyssa's blog ...

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My name is Moira, and I hope to share with you what my daughter's life has been like so far ... so you can all truly understand and appreciate the gift of pain, which we take very much for granted! Alyssa does not feel "peripheral" pain, which means she does not feel pain anywhere other than internally. This has led to many unintentional injuries and self-mutilation. My aim is to not only find others like Alyssa, and help those who may be going through what we are, as well as raising awareness about this condition, and how feeling pain is actually a GOOD thing! I am thankfully now part of a support group run on FB which is an amazing group of people, who all have varying types of experience with pain insensitivity. I can be contacted directly via understandingalyssa@hotmail.co.uk

Self-injuries to date:

The following will give you some idea of what Alyssa has already done to herself ... so far!

* Knocked a few of her own teeth out while "teething" and caused huge ulcerated sores in her mouth, from "rubbing" her teeth on her tongue and inner cheeks

* Bitten straight through her lower lip - didn't even flinch!

* Chewed the end of her tongue off, resulting in emergency repair and incisor removal. After having the tip of her tongue repaired, she then began chewing the side of her tongue as soon as her molars erupted

* Chewed a finger almost down to the bone

* Torn entire patches of skin off, and is scarred fairly extensively as a result! :-(

* Broken both feet - and I had to argue with doctors for almost 10 weeks with one of them, because they didn't believe it was broken! Even a lot of doctors haven't heard of Pain Insensitivity!

* Broken her left leg, just under the knee, and walked about on it quite happily for at least a couple of days. We'll never know how she broke it. Any time she says "my --- is moving, all by itself," we get x-rays done!

* She had to have all of her baby teeth removed, as and when they came in, due to all the biting injuries.
She is still dealing with the after-effects of that, as a teen.

* Required spinal surgery to correct a vertebral slippage issue, which she was completely unaware of. The op itself was pretty straightforward. The post-op period was lengthy, and anything but fun.

* Developed septicaemia from one of her many episodes of cellulitis because nobody realised it hadn't gone away, and was just grumbling away as an abscess in her elbow. When she collapsed, it was scary!

* Managed to dislocate her left hip, falling from her trike .... but it took us 4 months to realise, because she didn't feel it!

* Had corrective surgery performed on both hips. Unfortunate complications ensued, which eventually caused the entire removal of her Right hip, and part of her femur.

Saturday, 19 December 2009

It's been quite a week!

Since I last posted, the abscess has fully resolved and the scabbing is also now mostly gone. Very relieved about that! The other wounds are also still looking better, although she is starting to go at them again when she can. She has started the "new" antihistamine (new as in one which was recommended by Dr A in NY as worth trying, not new in the sense of it being a newly developed drug) last week also, and we reduced/removed some of the other ones so she wasn't just being floored by sedation! I misunderstood the paediatrician and thought I was to completely wean her off the sedatory drug which Alyssa gets to help the antihistamines work better - she actually just meant to wean her off the day doses ... so I had a few sleeplesness nights (because Alyssa did too) because I reduced them a bit too quickly, considering she also had the other antihistamine removed around the same time. Thought I'd done it gradually too, lol!

She was complaining about her "sore bum," that she needed her nose cleaned, that she needed water, that her tummy hurt ......! And everything in between, she just could not seem to settle at all, so we were both pretty tired. Spoke to the paed again and realised I was still meant to be giving Alyssa the evening dose of sedation, to see if that was enough to get her through night-time - and allow us both to get a good nights' sleep. It appears to be doing just that again, thankfully!

Her gut pain is sadly still much the same, despite her being noticeably stronger (her suit has not returned yet) and being helped by the OT exercises we're doing. She also sees the OT here once a week, and she gives Alyssa completely different things to do than those we are doing - so at least she's not getting bored with any of it. She really likes the OT stuff because it's just like playing games to her, even when some of the things are on her "no like" status ... she usually accepts whatever is being asked of /done to her. She managed to put her feet (the most sensitive area in her whole body) into a big tub full of dried peas last week - with her socks on obviously - and that's a major step for her, she's so paranoid about her feet touching anything!

We've also just started Alyssa on a propulsant laxative, in the hopes that it will help her to pass stools more easily - and she won't have to strain for hours on end like she does without the help of drugs etc. It's a bit too early to tell if it's helping yet, but I hope so. It's certainly not making her worse at this very low dosage so that's my main concern passed over (she's so sensitive to anything which makes her gut muscles contract, and that causes her even more excruciating pain!). She's been fighting yet another cold this week and seemed today to be going downhill, but she looked and felt better after her long nap, temperature was going back down towards normal when I last took it.

The dentists were very pleased to see/hear that the crowns over her molars are still protecting her tongue and inner cheeks from damage, and they will continue to monitor her every 3 months. The dental consultant said that the crowns can wear through after a bit so they will keep an eye on them for signs of wear and tear, and do more crowning as necessary.

I've started this update twice now and my laptop's crashed both times, so some of this is now a bit out of date (and also why it's taken me so long to update things this week!). Will update the rest again in a bit, so I can make sure this actually posts before I lose it.

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