Welcome to Alyssa's blog ...

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My name is Moira, and I hope to share with you what my daughter's life has been like so far ... so you can all truly understand and appreciate the gift of pain, which we take very much for granted! Alyssa does not feel "peripheral" pain, which means she does not feel pain anywhere other than internally. This has led to many unintentional injuries and self-mutilation. My aim is to not only find others like Alyssa, and help those who may be going through what we are, as well as raising awareness about this condition, and how feeling pain is actually a GOOD thing! I am thankfully now part of a support group run on FB which is an amazing group of people, who all have varying types of experience with pain insensitivity. I can be contacted directly via understandingalyssa@hotmail.co.uk

Self-injuries to date:

The following will give you some idea of what Alyssa has already done to herself ... so far!

* Knocked a few of her own teeth out while "teething" and caused huge ulcerated sores in her mouth, from "rubbing" her teeth on her tongue and inner cheeks

* Bitten straight through her lower lip - didn't even flinch!

* Chewed the end of her tongue off, resulting in emergency repair and incisor removal. After having the tip of her tongue repaired, she then began chewing the side of her tongue as soon as her molars erupted

* Chewed a finger almost down to the bone

* Torn entire patches of skin off, and is scarred fairly extensively as a result! :-(

* Broken both feet - and I had to argue with doctors for almost 10 weeks with one of them, because they didn't believe it was broken! Even a lot of doctors haven't heard of Pain Insensitivity!

* Broken her left leg, just under the knee, and walked about on it quite happily for at least a couple of days. We'll never know how she broke it. Any time she says "my --- is moving, all by itself," we get x-rays done!

* She had to have all of her baby teeth removed, as and when they came in, due to all the biting injuries.
She is still dealing with the after-effects of that, as a teen.

* Required spinal surgery to correct a vertebral slippage issue, which she was completely unaware of. The op itself was pretty straightforward. The post-op period was lengthy, and anything but fun.

* Developed septicaemia from one of her many episodes of cellulitis because nobody realised it hadn't gone away, and was just grumbling away as an abscess in her elbow. When she collapsed, it was scary!

* Managed to dislocate her left hip, falling from her trike .... but it took us 4 months to realise, because she didn't feel it!

* Had corrective surgery performed on both hips. Unfortunate complications ensued, which eventually caused the entire removal of her Right hip, and part of her femur.

Sunday, 2 August 2009

How things are going ...

Well, it's been a fairly good week (and not sure when I could last write that!) so am leaning towards thinking that perhaps the TSE is helping ... but not yet ready to say it definitely is. Don't get me wrong, she's still been cranky and telling me her tummy hurts, but not screaming in pain and definitely not crying so much that I've been frustratedly trying to get hold of the anaesthetist. So all in all, that's pretty positive! It can take up to two weeks to see the full benefit so I'll reserve full judgement until we've gotten to that point, but am pretty optimistic about her gut pain and the TSE.

The itching however, has not changed in the slightest and I am having to remind Alyssa constantly not to scratch. At times she actually seems unable to stop when I tell her to, which is not usual but at least when she is at her daycare placement, they are able to distract her easily.

She's had the first week where she was there for two mornings (the third was spent at the hospital getting the TSE machine) and she had a great time. She's eating better since starting there - the other kids eating at the same time definitely helps - and she's apparently a "good influence" on the other children. Lol! She's always tidying up the toys (not that I'm a neat freak or anything!) and they copy her, and she really loves jigsaws, books and puzzles ... which is rubbing off on the others too - creating a much more peaceful playtime! Which is nice to hear, and also that - although she asks for me every so often - she is easily distracted and isn't getting too upset now that I'm not there with her. When I left her the first time last week, her little face just looked heartbroken. She saw me and mum leaving ... and kept pointing to herself to go too, as if she didn't understand why she wasn't leaving as well! Poor girl, but she had fun after that, and was much better on Friday. Didn't want to come home once I returned to collect her! Well, not until she realised I was leaving again!

Saw her paediatrician again this week for a general review, and it went pretty well. We discussed her various medications and the TSE, and what I think is/isn't making a difference. Alyssa was pretty pale again (I'd noticed that again a few days previously, she was the same when she first started this drug trial although it cleared up after she adjusted) and after checking the insides of Alyssa's eyes, her paediatrician decided that they were pale too so it was best to just check her bloods. Things had run late that day, so we all decided it was easier to reschedule for the bloods to be taken, and should get notice of that shortly. She has previously had periods of being really pale, yet not anaemic so we're not that worried ... and she's still doing everything she was doing when she wasn't pale - no change or any other symptoms, so it's probably nothing. But best to check anyway.

Think that's all for now - told you, it has been a pretty good week!

Oh! I took her to "the shows" one evening this week, and she absolutely loved it - had a total blast! Charmed everyone (as per usual), to the point where she was getting free rides, lol! Then she gave the poor ride owner a heart attack as she watched him bolt the little car door from the outside .... and immediately opened it once the ride had started!!! I'm busy shouting at her to leave it alone, and the poor guy was rushing over to close it again! Hee, it's meant to be a safety bolt to stop kids just opening the door! And after him giving her a ride for free too! Poor bloke! He just looked at me in complete amazement and said "She's really bright, isn't she!?" and asked how old she was. I said "2 1/2 ... going on 90!" :-)

But it was SO nice to actually see her getting to do things like a "normal" child, and giggling her little head off. I just don't get to see that enough ... and can't wait to take her back again. She heard the ice cream van playing it's tune the following day and kept saying "shows, shows" ... Bless!


2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi my name is Laurie. I am 27 years old. I have dealt with this condition my whole life. I've always wanted to talk someone tell my story or something... I've heard of so many cases now compared to when I was young. Please contact me back. I would really love to talk to you about your daughter..

Alyssa's Mum said...

O.M.G! Hello Laurie!

I started this blog in the hope that it would eventually appear so others would find it - both people who are struggling to get answers, and those of you who are able to give some!

I would LOVE to contact you properly, but your link is taking me to an error page and tells me you do not yet have a profile. PLEASE PLEASE e-mail me at Mo2_cairns@hotmail.com and say hello properly! And thank you for letting me know you're out there!
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